I\'m not going to kill myself. As much as I told myself that I eventually would, I could never have the heart to do that. Especially not after realizing what kind of damage it would do to the people I care for. It\'s either end my life or continue to live & deal with the fucked up circumstances I have to endure with the probabilty of it getting worse until I eventually die. Sometimes you have to choose the less of two evils. Life can be like that. But still, I wish that somehow I would turn into ashes & be blown away. Never to be seen or heard from again.
Harmless.