Here comes the pain and I push it away
I’ll Fill my mind with other stuff today
Yet you creep back in it’s hard to shake
Wondering what you think and feel is hard to take
I don’t know a thing, I’m in the dark
My parental support torn apart
The only thing that was sweet and pure
Lost to me through drugs and their allure
I’m sorry baby, you will never know
How I roll in pain and agony so
But not for me, but for precious you
A daddy should be a proud and stable statue
I let you down and destroyed my soul
Now there is no where else for me to go
I’ve lost my baby, my heart and my pride
For nothing more than “good times” on the side
I will carry on fighting and I will never stop
I will get you back I will come out on top...
Yeah right, my fate is sealed
No more cuddles, no more laughing I finally yield.
Take her and take her fast
And while you’re there point that gun and blast
Oh that would be so simple, such an easy way out
Just stupid thoughts from a useless lout
I’m in a bad place, a deep depression, in a fudge
Hours and days and thousands of pounds in front of a judge
To no avail, I sit back broken and pale
I’ve never been a drinker, now Ive swapped drugs for the ale
I have no idea what is happening to me
I have a fear I will be dead by the age of 33
She was my anchor, my hopes and my pride
She was also my deepest fears on an opposite tide
Now those fears have finally come true,
9 months 13 days and two hours since I last saw you.
By J.N