My heart feels like its breaking, even though its strapped together.
My head feels like exploding, though I know it’s not forever.
My lungs feel suffocated, as if they’re tangled a web.
My soul is suffocating, being strangled by a thread.
I need meditation, as my sanity begins to BURST.
Feed me medication, to quench my twisted thirst.
Sooth the pain and heart ache, that convinces me I’m CURSED
And relive me of the mind games, let the roles reverse.
Smother me in reassurance, to stop my soul from swelling.
Overdose my broken heart, stop my feelings rebelling.
Overwhelm me with affection, to pamper all my doubts
Suppress the dark emotion, be the perfect spouse.
Re-home my heart my soul and body, nurture each and every inch.
Leave me clean and nice not dusty, without a fearful flinch.
Polish my doubts and sweep up the crusts, correct all of my wrongs.
Build me a home of cushion and candy, a home where I CAN belong.
Cover me in affection and fake the truth, because that hurts the most.
Lie, deceive and fake your love, pretend that we are close. Because,
My heart feels like it’s breaking even though it’s strapped together.
My head feels like exploding, though I know it’s not forever.
Deep down I know this will pass, sanity will sow back into place.
My hormones are roaring, exploring and restoring, the daily battles I face.
~E