Sometimes I feel lost; with nowhere to go, nowhere to be.
Enveloped by sadness, anger, pain or confusion; I go ahead, stumbling to find the right path - to find me-
I am broken. Nothing connects. I feel numb.
My overactive, over analytic mind suffocates any motation - leaving me with only frustration.
My purpose in life is what?
Living on is crucial, I understand that but - but what?
I understand I have no excuse.
I am pretty, wealthy, fortunate: with friends, a loving family - so why aren\'t I happy?
What could possibly be missing? Is it freedom? Experiences? Or Love?
Never have I experienced a connection with someone that has driven me over the edge. I\'ve never felt that\'s spark, felt wanted or needed.
I crave affection and attention-
I crave joy and (a boy) experiences. Experiences that I can share with someone that gets me, someone that appreciates me, adores me, cares about me.
Someone who can relate to me- both as a friend and a lover.
I crave love and I desire happiness.
I want to be happy with my face, my body, my life, my friends.
I know it will take time but I have hope -
- that hope is why I\'m still here today-