You lock us into your world of fear
Padlock the door and there’s no escape
Like we are trapped in our own vision of hell
And someone we love is behind it all
one day when you didn’t get your own way
You lashed out like you would normally do
Pinned me against the wall
Screaming and shouting
Throwing anything you could my way
Your words hurt more than your fists
It’s just everyone saw the affect your fists had
I was just used to dealing with it by now
Until the blue flashing lights were seen
Outside our house again
The neighbours must have heard
Again mum protects you
She doesn’t want you to go to prison
She wants you to do well
Why do you do this to her?
Constantly breaking her heart
It would happen in fits and spells
One week we would almost look like a functioning family
Like a tv ad, where everyone smiles
If only people knew those smiles were a facade
The masks of illusion hide the scars underneath
The next week would be a blizzard of dispair
Yet there was one day
This day was different to the rest
A normal kick off with a different reaction
This time I wasn’t there
It wasn’t aimed at me
This time you went too far
And I couldn’t stop it
Anger flew from you
Violence wasn’t enough
You were plagued with emotions
And no one could stop you
This time you went for mum
You did the same routine
Shouting and screaming and throwing your fists
But this time you went to the kitchen
You opened the draw
And you chased her
Brother why did you do this?
We tried to help you through everything
I always supported you after all that you did to me
Now you’ve lost everything
A criminal record
Lost me as a sister, for the day you turned on our mother
You lost my respect
But the worst of all
Is you hurt the one person who will never turn her back on you
You might as well have stabbed her that day brother
Cause you broke her heart so much she’s barely living