ByCatieLight

Nothing

Disclaimer: this poem depicts domestic abuse. 

 

 

When you held my hand the first time, I remember thinking how perfectly they fit together.

 

When you held me, I remember how safe I felt.

 

How you would never let anything hurt me.

 

I fell in love hard, it must of been why I was so blind. 

 

How did I not see that you would be the one to hurt me?

 

I missed the evil glint in your eyes and the rough look of your hands.

 

The way they could crush me and keep me down. 

 

 

 

 

The first time you hit me, I told myself it wouldn\'t happen again. 

 

You cried. I had never seen you cry. 

 

I thought maybe it was my fault, maybe I needed to change. 

 

When it happened again, I apologized and held you while you begged me not to leave you.

 

I shrunk myself, to keep from angering you, while you grew big.

 

You became a huge ocean while I sat on a tiny island. 

 

You surrounded me, consumed me, until I was no longer me. 

 

 

 

 

The last time you hit me, I didnt even feel it. I felt nothing as my sight grew dim but my eyes had open.

 

When I left, i didn\'t look back.

 

I didn\'t cry. 

 

I wasn\'t sad.

 

I felt nothing. 

 

I feel nothing.