Sometimes I pray
For armagedon
Once too many times a day
Other times I sit back and laugh imagining new beginnings..
Sometimes I pray
For absolution
Twice too many times a day
Other times I sit back and laugh imagining my reckoning
To whom this atheist prays
Is yet to be agreed
Between the depths of my consciousness and a never ending dream
I am yet to be shown what on earth this all means
I\'m in no rush though I have to say honestly,
Currently I\'m settled on a view from eastern philosophy, if I am god then that means god is me,
Does this still make me an atheist or do I now somehow believe?
How something so fickle can be the cause of so many brutal endings, will always be the root cause of my disbelief, or so I think..