I Lay Awake at Night

I lay awake at night

for something to change

then thoughts of my past

make me feel deranged

 

How could this happen

what did i do

to loose whats precious

not just one but two

 

i said I would love them

at give them my all

then lost my way

and let them fall

 

the deserve better

they were all i had

and now theyll be raised

by another dad

 

I know they love me

but they dont know

I looked like a hero

but it was all a show

 

I have a love

that keeps me alive

but for how long

till the darkness arives

 

I never belonged

im just a mistake

I tried to correct it

but it was to late

How can I save them

when I'm a curse

every time I try

I make it worse

 

I have been blessed

beyond compare

but now its all gone

a pain hard to bare

 

all I see

is a losing fight

so I hide my tear

And lay awake at night