6 months

6 months of freedom 

6 months of time alone 

6 months of you being on my feet wanting to be back

6 months of realizing “it’s not them.” “I’m not choosing.” Were lies 

Now look who you ended up with ,I get that feelings change 

but the way you did it wasn’t right 

2 years of you filling me up with insecurities 

2 years of trust being broken

2 years of using me to fulfill your own pleasure 

2 years of not confronting you

2 years wasted on someone who I thought I loved 

Pathetic thinking that you making her feel like a choice 

will make me fall to your feet and want you back

Stupid thinking I was in the sky with Cupid

Small part of me want you to hurt me 

but my heart doesn’t desire you anymore 

2 years of a hopeless heart beating for love

but 6 months realizing that now I can say 

I love myself...