TRYIN & CRYING...

I'm trying so hard to let it go...

what am I doing still sitting here...?

I should be long gone...

The fact is I have nowhere to go,

It's sad to know I'm all alone,

No friends or a place to call home...

Why did God take you both...?

I wish you were both still here,

I can't help but feel this impending fear...

Having one of you still here would've been nice,

I know there's nothing to change the plans that was already made...

I've never felt so unsure, so lost, vulnerable, scared & insecure...

There's no one to trust anymore... 

I thought it was bad before,

but had no idea that I could be with someone for near on 14 years & it mean so little,

I've tasted so many tears, & know now that I've wasted so many years...