Chasing The Dragon

Justifiable outcomes,

to tame who I’ve become.

Heaven sent

But malevolent

Just don’t fuck with me

And we won’t see

Like a madman

Had my hand

Pressed up an hour glass

Sliced my hands

trying to bag grams

Was counting down the seconds

Till I become a felon

Nah that’s that old shit

New facade fighting to resist

Now that shits over

What I really liked was how I’d fold her

Pumped up, full of bullshit

Mentality changed, had to quit

New battle, new scene

Wrote that shit into my genes

But you’re shook

Trying to see if that bitch

god let’s you off the hook

That’s how I got damned , my 1st stitch

Nah, I Gotta keep my composure

Fuck I’m off.

What I really need is some closure

Then something snatched me up

Put me in my place

Really bitched me up

It all comes full circle

New shit fucked me up,

now I’m all purple

I’m just tryna fill up my cup

It came with my doctor

Old face new name

Now it’s clinical,

But fuck I’ve always been cynical

With wide eyes

They determine my demise.

With surgical precision

They open a new incision.

Rip and claw

God damn I feel raw

Scream and gasp

Thinking of an escape

My only decision,

In this mental prison.

This is it, I’m breaking?

My spirits aching.

Where’s my way out

heart filled with doubt

This is it, I’m slipping?

My mind’s flipping.

No light no hope.

Where do I go?

This is it, I’m shaking?

My body’s quaking.

I’m dying to know

Does this energy flow?

This is it, I’m dying.

I’m going down smiling

Never had enough tears for crying