I'm filled with a grief that is so overpowering,
that my mind does not know what to do with itself.
It's a pain beyond many others' understanding,
but our love must end.
It's attached with a numbness that renders me unable to explain how I feel;
I feel everything and nothing simultaneously.
There are a million devastating words I want to say to you,
but I can't face putting them together because they construct the reality,
the foundation of my worst fear;
that we're not meant to be.
How badly I want you to tell me you'll change for me;
that I'm the only one for you.
To make me believe I'm as perfect as you tell me I am,
but you can't because you'd rather have 100 pennies than a £1 coin,
and we're not meant to be.
I torture myself with wasteful thoughts of what we could have been,
are you simply a lesson best learned the hard way?
'Meant to be'! what a ridiculous phrase.
I've lived my life so far, reassuring myself with those words,
but we are not meant to be.
You've helped me see that I choose what is mean to be.
The stars don't have it laid out for me and I'm not following a script, unaware.
Destiny once brought me great comfort,
but it's only made me cling onto you and the empty promises you gave me.
If you have to consider if I am enough for you then I am not,
and we are not to be.
- Author: abchelsea ( Offline)
- Published: November 25th, 2015 08:56
- Comment from author about the poem: Apparently hard times call for poor, soppy poetry.
- Category: Love
- Views: 22
Comments2
I felt the same way when I broke up with my ex that's exactly how I felt.
thats so moving Ive felt that
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