Hurt

No, I don't want to end up some old woman whose bitter and gone mad
but it seems like here lately everything hurts which keeps me so sad
I never really let my feelings show - on the outside
yea yea I know Its all about that pride
but it hurts all the same - tired of all of these d*mn games
just once in my life, I want for someone to love me
and not just use me as a fill in for company
get my hopes all up in a frenzy thinking
I will no longer be a victim of envy
tired of planning and coordinating other peoples weddings
while all along praying to God for my own nuptial blessings
such beautiful liars, with their selfish desires and constantly rolling tires
thinking I've stumbled upon The One
just to realize that to him I'm just for fun
I hate the pain of being rejected
Or is my faith being tested
I tried to wait and stop all access
just to get all caught up in his caress
Oh how I'm such a beauty and a cutie
all you want is to lay and play with my booty
just a bunch of jerks, low down dirty flirts
adding more and more to my already damaged heart
would love nothing more than to give a good kick right in your middle part
go someplace else for your dessert
you have no idea how much this really hurt

lsr 2016