Inside/ outside

Exsploring with life, like we could try everything once, not really knowing what the fast life does, i fell in love first with drugs, and the way they made me feel, my first love was narcotics, ill just keep it real, when the world made me angry, i let myself down, drugs made me feel like i could leave the ground,id meet people who loved me but it was just cause i was there , then i went to prison, i found out who cared , at the moment drugs made me supress the hunger, the dream to be found, the desire to know theres more, but i never left the cloud, people living lies reckless and in love  so much confusion in my mind with all these drugs,  we are thrown into freewill , given the chance to succeed,but all that we know in life ,is people die and bleed,learning how to fight, i encounterd confusion while searching for myself, life has created a monster inside me ,a stranger is all ive felt, pretending everythings different after living on the edge, i have been forgotten , lost inside my head,this universe claims happiness,but only if your rich, i have felt my strengths why saying, life is such a bitch, i felt a person born who didnt like her shell, so the darkness took a soul who didnt know they fell.