berry-ing myself into you (Part 2)

i plant myself into your ground hoping i would grow faster,  that i could create more luscious flowers and sweet sweet berries enough to the point to where i was wishing all year round that the winter wouldn't dry me out or you wouldn't leave me in the fall or just wishing your true beautiful, handsome colors of your euphoria would bloom in the spring.  but you. your once nice beautiful green leaves changed and fell to fail and let me down to never come back within our tree.  I noticed it when your berries were sour and it rained all throughout the summer.  It was like the sun never shined once. The clouds were no longer white, they were cloudy and that’s when it changed.  You were always distant and cold like winter to fool me that you were hot as summer all year round. You never evolved with me like spring. You tore me down like autumn. But I didn’t float I sank with your flood of noncaring emotions. Wishing I could let go just in order to grow. And this is why I never could.