Sucker

I have lost it all- everything that I own

Time after time

Again and again

Nothing ever shocks me much these days

Cant get ahead, at least not for very long

Its wrong, the way that they chase after my luck

As if I owe it all to them and I should donate my proceeds to all of their causes, God only knows what they may be

They vary, I can say that much

I am a sucker for risk taking and, I could not imagine being anything otherwise

If you never take any chances, you can end up stiff with spiritual rigor mortis

A tortoise hiding lamely in your self centered little shell, when you used to be such a determined little hare

Its so hard for me to pretend to care about anything trivial, because it's all so wishy-washy and unreliable anyway

You cannot take stock in anything that most have to say, for they all run their cock-suckers on auto-pilot

They would rather talk than suck, which is something I will never try to comprehend, personally

I can be a chatter box as well, I won't lie

But, at least I keep the conversation interesting instead of tired and lackluster like they are

Boring, boring, boring

blah blah blah

Yack yack yack

Whatever happened to outdoor events like hop scotch and potato sack races?

Perhaps nobody can figure out how to focus on shit talking and hopping simultaneously

Laziness is definitely in the equation somewhere

It always seems to be somehow, come to think of it

They love to pin their tails on donkeys that don't belong to them

As long as they can use you, they are going to continue doing so, because they cannot exist otherwise

They are nothing without you

They are not just random, nor are they few and far between

Thus, why I have lost everything so many times

I was not aware of all their crimes until way down the road

I guess that I assumed that goodness was more prevalent than wicked ways

Betrayal has forever been common place, apparently

It isn't going away anytime soon

So, I walk on eggshells around everyone and everything that happens all around me has me taking shit personally

I know that I shouldn't, especially when I honestly don't even care, except for within a granule of my being

A microscopic part of me that has become of my once natural state

Hidden from the rest of me and forgotten about almost entirely....

Oh well, I suppose that everyone is a sucker every once in awhile...But, nobody does it better than I do.....

8/22/2018