Superpowers

When I was younger I wanted a power.

To turn invisible at will and hide in the shadows.

Where no one would see me and no one would judge me.

Where I could slip away whenever I wanted.

It seemed like the best superpower ever,

To have no one looking at me.

No one having to see me and all of my faults.

No one at all. Just me slipping into the crowd.

But now I'm second guessing, I'm thinking it through.

And I think that stopping time is what I need right now.

A break from the busy people surrounding my world.

The people walking and leaving me in the dust.

Filled with awful questions I don't want to answer.

Filled with problems and choices and the past haunting me,

When I can just stop my fingers and

Time would just stop.

I could stay in that hole forever and have enough time.

To answer my questions and question my answers.

Where I could stay in that second without thinking of the future.

Or thinking of my past which still seems to follow me.

But I know that is not possible,

The world will still spin and life will go on,

Even if I am not ready

To move on.