Sometimes happy is actually sad

Shes full of depression,

Falling deep into her own thoughts.

You wouldn't really like her,

She's cried more than just a river,

You wouldn't really like her,

Shes actually very quiet,

She has more insecurities than the girl you thought you knew.

The girl with a smile and always laughing,

She cried herself to sleep last night,

The girl making jokes about herself,

She hates everything about herself,

The girl who seems right in her mind,

Her mental state kills her everyday.

You wouldn't know the real her,

She won't let you know the real her,

She smiles so you don't worry,

She laughs so you don't cry,

She hides her depression so you feel better,

She wants you to be happy before she is,

Sometimes happy is actually sad,

But you would never know.