Scrutiny

Everything has forever been obvious to me

Even when the planets are all working against my astral chart, I can still see

I am seeing it all so clear here in this tiny town that I am tempted to start walking around blindfolded

I am worried..for them, not for myself

I don't exactly know what it is that they assume about me

All that I know is that they are all ludicrous assumptions

Here, they all pull rabbits out of their own asses because they think that wearing top hats is what puts them all on blast

With me, they are on blast, no matter what they say or do

Its like this everywhere I roam 

Here in Carson City, it is quite an entertaining show at times

The offspring of rich bastards that become even worse than their parents

Uneducated, spoiled, rotten little twits who are all convinced that they run some powerful little clique

If that were really the case, they would understand how to treat real friends who truly have their backs

It is not that serious

It is more lame than it is sick and deranged

Its a mixture of Mr Rogers Neighborhood meets Breaking Bad which, to me, seems unnecessarily strange

I know that I am here for more than what I originally had thought

In fact, I am actually way past due

When I was trapped in Reno in 2012, I know now what I was there to do

Somehow, I succeeded on a far greater level than even was expected of me

It is time for me to start cracking my whip, both physically and spiritually

I think that I am here to help look after the less fortunate and the mentally ill

Here to spread the lessons that I have learned over many   , many years

I must learn to know when it is time to move on and when it is time to remain placid, complacent, still..

I must not be in fear of being recognized by one of the walking dead

I can see that some of them have started to figure out just who the fuck I really am

So, now, of course they think they have the right to know why I am here

What it is that I may happen to do in my leisure time

They start trying to ride their shovels through my tailwind of bliss to piss all over me like I am their territory..

Take what they choose and leave me to pay their fucking bill

Are they actually convinced that any of their antics are anything even remotely new to me?

I am way too high up upon my own cloud for them to ever hope to even get the slightest clue, and there is not a dammed thing that any of them can do about it, as usual

They are supposed to be some kind of assassins who wear their hair up in buns to intimidate, but it only annoys me

Buns are what the ladies  wear when they are cooking or cleaning house

They look like dog shit, especially upon the heads of subhuman mutts

They should save their pennies to pay a seamstress to scalp them and sew them to their butts like a bunch of cottontail bunny rabbits who are losing their fur

That will be the day for sure

I should call up all the homies back home to come show this place what a real clique is

Stuck between hydraulics from sticking their noses so far up in my biz 

I think that they assume I am some faggot pussy just because I look good, I am intelligent, and I look like I am white

They even try to whistle blow my private life and mock me for being a child of the night

Hello, dipshits, we live in Nevada

The time of any given day is not only irrelevant, but an illusion

Penile Intrusion is on the top of my list of skills

Nobody pays any of my fucking bills

Here in Nevada, they have always assumed that must be what happens for a bitch who lives and loves like me

They can't even see shit that is an inch in front of their faces, so what makes them so damned sure that they will ever see shit about me?

They think that their must be something more that I am not telling them, as if I have any need at all to hide

They think that everyone must be the cowards that they strive all the time to be

They have forever lied to everyone, including themselves, which is the silliest shit I think I have ever seen

They always insist that it is me that is not coming clean because they don't understand me or how I do the things I do

Convinced that who I suck or screw belong to someone else which must be themselves if they have gone so far out of their way to point their fingers to anyone besides the guilty one which is always them

Owning up to your own bullshit is an absolute must if you ever want to accomplish anything that is worth a fuck

But, everyone has their own idea of what that entails, and most of the time they fail in their ability to explain it sensibly 

They all have opinions that reek more than the sweatiest, fattest crotch in the crowd

Unfounded, and conveniently interchangeable and easy for them to hide

It is so funny to witness the distortion in their faces as they realize that they are paying the price of all the times they have run scared

Their body language becomes a permanent flail

Their motor functions quickly  wane 

Then Mother Moon retreats to her darkness and they become lost in space like they are in an episode of the Twilight Zone

I can see how insane many people really are 

You see, it is a little gift God has given to those of us who are smarter than any numerical value in what the scientists call an I.Q.

Scrutiny is always overly indulged upon by the ones who have to dig

With us, there is never a need for second glances or opinions

We are who we are, and they are the socially inept..

All they ever try to do is intercept our pathways....

11/7/2018