Chrysalis (or the birth of a soul)

Rain is pattering on the rooftop 

As if crystalized in its chrysalis my soul waits 

Sheltered in the fairy-tale cradle of my cocoon

I think the time hasn’t come for it to emerge into the light

The world outside is unfamiliar and not necessarily welcoming

Why have you chosen this day for my birthday? 

That is not a question you can answer

Perhaps it is not even a question I have the right to ask

Like a white star in the heavenly splendor 

My soul waits in between being and nothingness 

It is quiet and content in the underground darkness

Of its nascent ignorance of the outside world

But I know that the blissful sanctuary 

Of my cocoon cannot contain it

Because time simply wouldn’t wait for me… 

Nonetheless I don’t want to come out of my chrysalis 

I want to remain in the warmth of your glowing hands 

That have been nurturing my soul inside the cocoon 

And I know for certain that I will lose it as soon as 

I climb out into the light of the world… 

Just a few seconds can I remain 

Rocked gently in my fairy cradle

My seconds drip from the spoon

Viscous like golden honey 

I am basking in the warmth of a sun I never saw

I helplessly stretch my hands to it 

I want to disappear in this sphere… 

To become one of its glorious rays 

You smile at me and beckon me to learn to fly to you…

No matter what I think, it is time 

To come out into the light and explore the world 

That has just been baptized in the fresh autumn rain

But it is cold and unfamiliar for my newborn sensitive soul

And yet… and yet… I realize that it simply cannot remain in the cocoon   

It must emerge from the chrysalis and learn to survive 

Every fiber and nerve inside me strains at the thought of abandoning my warmth 

And facing the unknown… the vast and boundless universe…

You reassure me that my soul has nothing to fear 

Then you promise to protect it as it wanders 

Through the radiant corridor of light 

You want to teach me to fly and get closer to the milky 

Starlight of infant dreams…

Yes, I also think that it is time for my soul to grow wings  

The fairy butterfly wings that will finally carry me to you

That will let me see the golden sun and bask in its warmth 

I intuitively feel that if I get closer to its rays then I could 

Again be safe and radiantly happy just like I was inside the chrysalis 

Protected by your angel hands that seem to have been woven out of light 

I understand that I am emerging from the sanctuary of a chrysalis 

That you gently nurtured and protected while waiting for me to 

Gather strength in my feeble body and learn to stand on my own

But more than anything in the world I would like to know where you came from 

What white blinding light has shaped the glowing perfection of your hands? 

They are so gentle that it seems to me they could hold brilliant stars 

With the same tenderness as they are now rocking my newborn soul 

Your hands could hold flames and the fire wouldn’t burn them 

They could hold crystal snowflakes and they would only 

Turn into radiant flowers that snow and ice wouldn’t chill

Your hands could plant gentle bluebells and make them ring 

They could hold skylarks and release them into the sky 

And I will hear them sing the songs your hands have played… 

I blink and shield my eyes from the brightness 

The world is glowing and you have wings spun out of light 

You place me near a carpet of bluebells 

That heaven itself seemed to have infused with its glow

My soul rests among the bluebells and I feel ecstatically happy 

I lie still for a few moments looking at the sky but then an extraordinary

Flow of strength prompts me to stand up and suddenly I feel them…

There in the golden sunlight I spread them for the first time…

I realize in the shadowy twilight of my newborn thought 

That I have wings that will carry me to the sun and back 

To you and away from you in the glow of the budding day 

And the warm glory of summer nights 

My butterfly wings are strong and they are glowing 

Glowing like your smile 

I will learn to fly and get closer to the sun 

If you could only promise to take me with you 

Your smile reflects the light of a thousand stars 

You promise but I shouldn’t forget that my schooling has only begun 

There is so much for my soul to learn and even more to experience

So many summer nights amid fragrant bluebells 

So many crystal days on snow-capped mountains 

The rain stops falling and I fly to the sun 

I am one with you and part of your soul…

Your wings carry my soul in the sunset 

My life is only beginning in the newly baptized world

My butterfly soul will learn to laugh and love and play

It will learn to comfort, win and lose battles…

Until my crystal moment will melt in your radiance 

You and I will fuse into one glowing soul as two parts of one radiant whole 

We will diffuse starlight dust for anyone and everyone who comes after us… 

Glow… Bless… Love…