Change

All want is the respect I deserve,
I work so hard to prove myself,
My point,
My worth,
Maybe its time I make them choke on their words.

They talk about me,
They say I steal,
They call me a hoe but never confront me.
Running their mouths like we are enemies.
There are tears in my eyes as I'm writting this piece,
trying to explain how I feel,
This wouldn't hurt so bad if it wasn't real.

What isn't seen is the fear in my eyes,
The pain in my vibe,
I was screaming so loud
Nobody was listening,
So I had To rebel.
I raised hell,
Kicking everything in my way
Not caring what fell down.

A good person who became bad,
I have a story, I hate it too.
Everytime I needed someone no one came through.
Until now, twenty four
2018 is over in a few months now.
I cant believe it,
My mind is crusing on speed dial,
life use to be me looking through a microscope running wild.
No trust in my heart,
Doing whatever I can to make life worth while.

Then I met this boy chilling at the park,
We started dating,
I thought he was like the rest.
Time passed by a couple weeks
I wake up in a treatment facility,
but he was there the whole six weeks.
I'm still thinking he is going to leave me eventually.
He didn't, he stook through,
He stayed by my side and I cheated on him too.

What can you do for a man who saw something in you,
Something you yourself didnt see.
How do I make up for my stupitity?
How do I show him I can be his everything?
All these questions I ask my self,
I don't even need too
Its just all guilt,
He loves me for me,
I'm even working on becoming a Lady.

He was there when I was bettering myself,
He was there when I was hurting myself,
He was there to protect me.
He was there when I was hungry.
An amazing man,
Who isn't like everyone else.
Who puts everyone before himself,
He's still here,
Right by my side,
I'm so glad I changed my ways before I lost the love of my life.