States of Ignored

There they go

Up stairs

Down, aimless

In minor key

Above me and below me

Shuffling the chairs

Low muffles of chaos

Out of my broken hands

I’ll tie a knot around my broken years

Leave the box as it was

To preserve time

And take up space

You deserve it

There she is

The life-waster

Sat on the floor

Looking back over

Old papers that meant so little

And now you mean so much

More than how quickly can I pack up my life?

But you always really did

She’ll try to plant another existence

But their minor key bleeds

Into this consciousness

And in complete silence I’m lonely

God,

Show yourself

Or at least take me back home

Where we sung in major

And the thin walls

Brought her closer

To the comforting sounds

Or amplified the magical silence

I wish I was sat on a train again

She’ll always keep trying

I’m sick of having panic attacks

Over shit I don’t care about

Menial, banal (can I scream please)

Drag me backwards

Down every rabbit hole

That leads to nothing I ever wanted

Feelings I left to rot

But it seems they’re shitty plastic

So I drown and choke and

They’ll drink out of cardboard

So many states of ignored

I look up at logos

I’ll flow

I’ll be true

Flow with reason

But not for any façade

So many states of ignored

Is this where I lay now?