what is it worth

feel this

you exsit long enough to relize nothing matters and it makes me pissed. 

but still you try to find a purpose make your dreams big make a list.

spend so much time working but still waiting for a switch. 

things aint  working out at home the shooter still shoots the victim still ducks.

lives or dies some how we still stuck.

rush out at the first sight of hope. 

benefits that you always herd so great,  the thing you thought was pulling you up is wrapping around your neck i cant cope 

life line turns to a noose the magical rope.

nothing really changes in your journey except dierction.

even when you take a new turn its like you are going no where and i dont know how to make a crorrection.

i hope you read this some day and its not to long.

even when you leave 7000 miles from home just to find on earth is where i dont belong.

where should i go what should i do with my life

cause what ever i do its just not right.

everyone finding themselves special.

the truth is were all just here.. no one better than the next 

get that image in your mental.

nothing i do here will make a diffrence 

so the day some devine being wants to make its intereference.

know you made a mistake.

i own up to mine. i dont belong here just make it my last day what is it going to take!!.

pull the trigger, cut with knife, what do you want me to do if sucide aint right.

end it fucking end it. 

i know you sick of hearing it. 

maybe you cant understand me this my voice im clearing it. 

make it my last night. make it my last light my last mental fight.

knowing im not worth and nothing but a bad luck course what is this fucking life worth.