the war machine don't want me

queer-with-a-pen

i am

--am i?--

yeah, i think i am

 

drunk drunk drunk

and signing myself up for

selective service so i

will be able to access my financial

aid and not have to cough up

almost $2,000 for one term

that me and my bank account

just really do not have, ya know?

 

and that little dropdown menu

well it doesn’t offer the option of:

“i am being forced to sign up for this

so i can afford college”

because i guess that sounds less

appealing than my being recruited

during lunch while i watched my fellow

(cis) male students dislocate their shoulders

doing pull ups so the older boys in uniform

would be proud of them and

maybe even give them a

nice little lanyard

 

because after over $100 to get

the right name and gender marker

on my id and $60 to get a new

birth certificate

i’m male enough for the government

to want to make into cannon fodder

but i’m still not male enough to

use the men’s room without the

threat of being verbally harassed

or physically assaulted

 

and that just makes me so angry

because here’s “bone-spurs donnie”

a known draft dodger of

at least 5 times who had the money

to pay off any doctor he wanted

trying his hardest to ban trans

people from enlisting

to fight in a war backed by a country

that wants them dead

 

yet that little M on my id

that i paid so much for

makes me eligible to be blown

to bits or come back to

a country that doesn’t want me anymore

with my brains scrambled from

shell shock and ptsd

 

because this country is willing

to pretty much force-feed young men

into the bottomless belly of the

war machine

 

always stoking the fires of the

military industrial complex with

money and unscarred flesh

and so much lies

and so much fear mongering

 

and i am just so tired

of having to fill in that

little bubble with my ballpoint

pen and a click of the mouse

pledging what could easily be the

rest of my life to being

riddled with bullets

miles away from home

 

just so i can grab that

financial aid

that perpetual carrot being dangled

in front of my oh so

transgender and queer nose

so i can afford an education

and not become another statistic

 

another person that the

united states of amerikkka

has failed

  • Author: Boaz Priestly (Pseudonym) (Offline Offline)
  • Published: December 5th, 2018 02:10
  • Category: Sociopolitical
  • Views: 55
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