Infinity

Winter has overtaken the skies

Ice floats through the air

Becoming more aware of my surroundings

Realizing all that I can do

It seems that I am never through with all the obstacles

The hurdles that I must leap to move on

Last year, I could really feel the warmth of the Holiday Season

This year, all of that glory is gone

I do not know if I will ever meet my true match

But, I have faith that one day it will occur

Most likely after I have fixed my teeth that were damaged by a bastard that I met in that whirlwind that ended up taking me hostage, leaving all of my sensibility in a blur

I still think about him here and there and I hope and pray that he is happy and that all is well

Hell has had him wrapped up in its chains since birth and his only family has had him under their vehement spell

The day will come sooner than he knows when that selfish Mother of his gives up and dies

Her lies will dissipate in thin air

He will be broken and alone 

He may come crying to me with all of his pain but I don't think that I will be able to pretend that I still care

It is insane how many times that we have been taken in circles that are all one in the same

So many times he has left me on my own to suffer as I simultaneously had no other choice but to become a master  of loves wicked game

He said all these kind words about me to my sister , telling her that he never wanted me to feel left out or alone

Then, he turned right around and played me for a fool, suddenly unable to condone me for who I am

It is like he could not stand the fact that I have discovered who I am and that I don't give a fuck about who can or cannot stand me

He is all about trying to appease the crowd

He told my Mother that I am too much for him now..whatever....

Until nobody else can offer him anything and he has been worn down to his final straw, wherein he will become like martial law, tracking me down like a madman

He will hunt me like the wolf that he has always been

I can't let him win me over this time

I am absolutely done

When he pulled his bullshit a year ago, I made sure that his little game would ultimately be won by me

So much so that there is a very good chance that I won't ever see him in this incarnation again

But if it so happens that I do, I must seal for good our fate..

I will tie him to my fucking ankle and drag him out of his circular nightmare so together we can finally proceed and make our figure eight....

12/7/2018