I used to be able

I used to be able to fake a smile in church

but i can't even do that now

maybe paster was right when he said

"some of us are like robots who flip a  switch once they walk into the church"

but the thing is

my switch is broken 

it's stuck on the wrong setting

i used to be able to fake a smile in church

but i can't even do that now

maybe the devil was right when he said

"just give up already"

or maybe i was right for not doing it...

my future someone would have never known me

he will know of my scars and my struggles 

and he'll still stand by me

i used to be able to fake a smile in church

but i can make it seem a bit more real