If I could do it all again

If I could do it all again, I would go back to the beginning of my insecurities look at the younger me pull myself to the side for a talk reassuring me that no matter what anyone has to say about me love yourself because that’s the love you really need, If I could do it all again, I would tell my younger self don’t worry about trying to fit in be comfortable in my own skin tell myself no matter how many times you feel like you lost don’t worry because one day you will win, see the knowledge I have now I wish I had back then, but the problem was I didn’t know how to even begin, like trying to find myself but I hated myself so I denied myself to love myself because I was ashamed of myself so I always tried to love someone else but I can’t love a woman when I couldn’t even love myself, church boy who was a nerd, always spoke to people but felt like I was never heard, contemplated suicide because I felt like I was alone in the world, I praise God I never went through with it, because that part of my life of trying to fit in I’m through with it, being that person that sits at home on his days off listen to music and Vapes I’m cool with it, some of y’all reading this would have never thought I was gonna kill myself years ago so this is new news isn’t it, but that part of my life is done because the confidence I have now in myself I wish I had back then, because I know I would be a different person if I could only do it all again