Argh...What Accursed Fate Did Lurk...

Regarding thee 2009 Hyundai Sonata
(50+ shades of gray), a cred
debt tub bull vehicle, that at
this moment finds sinking
feeling akin to led
zeppelin, yes (for almost ten years,
this car manufactured with damn) sped
to countless destinations,

no whomever drove head
ding here, there, or anywhere,
yea without missing a beat said
vehicle dependable, rightly never left

being reliable, thus no question even Fred
Flintstone could corroborate, how red
dilly reliant aforementioned car
stood us in good stead,

aye attribute to quality wed
did craftsmanship in tandem being exam
manned by skilled automotive technicians,
nonetheless majority of cumulative costs
exceed all other expenditures

and asper right finds
me in a severe emotional,
financial, and spiritual jam,
when meager money resources
socked with exorbitant costs
analogous to experiencing bam!

Over today, a six hundred
plus dollars repair, hits mine head
hard (albeit figuratively), I surmise
a worse fate than being dead

agh...please help me survive
this shell shock humongous,
(yet critical) brake system replacement,
cuz trickling optimism fled

leaving me agast
how ongoing expenses,
will be met for me tum tug get fed
now yours truly feels

utterly rife with dread
as his emergency savings
account reserve tapped,
since checking account

hemorrhaged i.e. bled,
whereat monthly social security
deposit cannot be used to feather bed
my inner peace, particularly when

alarming sense of monetary
distress dost dead
din ability to breathe easy,
when faith to remain
financially solvent fled...

Hence psyche feels like
being pitched to and fro
with no recourse to buttress
legal tender woe

full despair spurs philanthropic
largesse (I hate to beg), though
an upended employment track record
(most recent job held...oye vey

maybe two decades ago)
severe bouts of anxiety/
panic undermined emo
shin null (psychological) confidence
nsync with sweaty palms, this this bro
kin metaphor, which in part

contributes to lifetime mein kampf
of a bajillion times ho...ho...
humbug mood possessed mind
fiendish poker face spirit in hell
worse off than a hobo living on skidrow!