It's Christmas

It's Christmas and you're not by my side.
I've never had so many people around
but still feel completely alone with so little pride.
It's Christmas and I can see your face
In the tree, the presents,
This Christmas is such a waist.

I just want to be in your arms
I just want to cry.
I just need to stay strong
I need to continue this stride.
I've accomplished so much since you been gone,
But my heart feels empty because I was pawned.

Pawned? Why you ask I put in such a way.
You let your brothers get between us
Believing what they say.
You knew it wasn't true,
You knew I wouldn't do that to you
I became a lady I'm getting better at it too.

Even after you left me I continued on
I stayed strong,
No matter how much you thought I was wrong.
Now look I'm almost there,
I'm about to make twenty three an hour
but you still don't care.

I'm nicer I treat people kind,
I don't even smoke weed, Something you like.
What else can I do, I can do more
Ive never felt so torn.
Why cant I be your worth?
Man I even try to go to Church.

I sound desperate I dont even care,
I'll do anything to get you back I swear.
You said we would get married
You said my heart was the only one you carried.
We were trying to have a baby
Now my heart is on saftey.

Its Christmas and I'll keep growing
I'll keep on focusing on myself,
I'll keep on strolling.
I need to keep God by my side
I'll continue my grind,
Maybe someday you will come back and unwind.