Groundswell Of Emotional Blessedness

(thank you All Poetry, Facebook, family
Poetry Soup,... et cetera global friends.)

A network of cherished kinships allied
forged, and linkedin analogous
to union of groom and bride
thru electronic bonds engender intrigue,

nonetheless unconditionally accept,
no matter I chide
self, and reference mine existence
as if...this mortal already died

now more appreciative than ever,
cuz younger days witnessed
peers that did elide
me accompanied with relentless

teasing, snubbing, roasting
akin tubby kindled over a fireside,
thus...solitude shadowed me as sole guide
peopled with books

to escape and hide
from so called "real"
webbed world, yet inside
this former grievous

lad through alienation,
emasculation, and isolation no joyride
valuing myself less than a pawn on
chessboard of life

envying extrovert as kingside
station depriving, insulating, and
ostracizing yours truly belied
to Matthew Scott Harris

marginally functioning, and denied
him camaraderie, dating, enjoying
female friendships due
to lack of confidence and pride

and at the cusp of
pubescence...a slow descending ride
into the hungry (anorexic)
maws of suicide,

which ideations hammer psyche,
now aghast how I tried
(without success) to disappear sundering
mine complex edifice

into the wide
abyss of nothingness,
hence to treasure
those electronic connections, 

perhaps...totally no more'n four score
(and seven years ago)
all told of unbeknown village people
comprising worthy chums,

sans human league roar
ring (okay pardon the hyperbole),
but letting this foo fighter explore
a greater range of interpersonal

(no matter virtual), but each
unnamed cyber buddy worth more
than simple rhyming galore
words express, some

or all those who sprung
from Earth, wind and fire,
viz cosmic toreador
this poet would their

physical presence adore,
who realizes genuine experienced love
second best option
communicated thru the Internet...bonjour,

hence please accept at the least
(even thee lovely cousins,
daughters, sister Shari por favor,
a hug emanating from within mine
integrated central processing unit core!