My Inhibitions

My inhibitions made me lose my intuition,

Felt so lost as if I had no ambition,

Wondering where will I go and if the world would miss me,

Or am I just another body that's a part of this mischief,

Zealous in my heart but my spirit is tired,

Pain runs deep as it trickles through my bloodstream,

                  Dreams seem so real,

I wake in the night seeing things that make me scream!,

Never had a team it has always been me by my own,

Trying to keep strong when I feel so alone,

If I had the chance would I ever atone?

I don't know that's a question we'll never know,

If I lose my touch then it's all over,

Looks like my luck is out I don't need a four leaf clover,

Hard to be happy when all I have for the world is loathe,

Write flawlessly but my life is full of flaws, 

I never been one to follow the law I've forever been an outlaw,

Head in the clouds so how didn't I see the downpour...