My dance with death

He calls to me 

Leads me close

And then he leaves 

Over and over

Again and again

It's my own fault 

For trusting him

He always promises

He can make it all change

Make it all go away

So i let him in

I listen to his empty promises

But I'm oblivious

His voice is like magic

Deep and smooth

It resonates in my chest

His words are rich

Like the sweetest wine

So I let him in 

And I listen

I invite him to stay

Sit him at my table 

Let him sleep in my bed

Follow me through my day

His presence is consuming

It distracts me from the rest of the world

Having him around

Makes me feel at ease

So I let him in 

He's beyond beautiful

His darkness is alluring 

I prove my love 

By carving his name 

Into a piece of me 

I tell him I'm ready 

I want to be with him for eternity

He smiles at me 

And then he leaves

He promises me 

We can be together forever 

It just takes one thing

I have to prove I can do it

I can leave everything 

And everyone 

Behind 

I tell him I'd do it 

One final heartbeat 

Then everything would change

But once again

He says not today

I love you 

And I want you

But not today

It's never today

He's never ready for me 

But I've been ready for him

I've planned it all 

A hundred times over

The only thing left

Is to know when

And how 

How I will get to him

When the time comes

Because I know

Once we are together 

He will never leave me 

And I will be his for eternity