What happen in my past

What you're about to read is a hundred percent true,this is just a drop of water in the endless Sea that has happened to me in the last 4 years, but for every one door that closes in life another one, giving me a better depth of Life understanding a greater degree of learning in my life greater than most because of this I am not the same and I never will be ever again.

I m going to attempt to explain to you what I been through so you understand just how much you done in repairing me and my soul .  I’m one when I say I love I mean for ever ok so now to you I say for ever I will love only you ! I want to say this first before I continue because what im going to explain to you will be painful to read at what happen to me.   I’m one who’s vary selective at what I date or go out with . I been with only 3 women in my life 1 girlfriend 1 married wife for a year ended in disaster and 1 for 24 years that the one I truly thought was you life mate and pledged my life to . Our relation ship was golden for 24.7 years u till she hit 47 years old we wanted kids and the American dream and worked at it like any other . We were deeply In love ,so much so I created something and patented it to make sure if anything happened to me she be ok im very mechanically inclined and think way outside the box in life and to add to how much I loved her gave her half of it , we could finish each others sentences and knew what each wanted for dinner and felt it was to say magical to us , we always worked out problems we never fought or argued we talked them out never running away . But one year she started worrying about change of life and this happened shortly a few years after her loosing  1 but I think 2 pregnancy and I could not get her to a doctor worried about her I pushed her maybe to hard but  it was out of fear and I knew me getting children was not going to happen anymore  not being able to except this I could not even look at babies section anymore in stores this I did  know it had a impact on her to loosing 2 hurt her and I massively to. Then at her work to make things worse one guy managed to get her away from me and that here I refused to see it ,and I questioned  her and the first time she ran from me and stayed in a hotel not calling or texting me at all till morning where she was whispering and when I asked her why she was whispering she denied  it . When she got home into a shower she jumped instantly I washed cloths after that and found stains in her undies I knew but I still denied  it . At that point over come with grief I wrapped a cord around my neck and tried to kill myself but I don’t remember that I was told this by her she saved me I woke on the floor her panting and crying . I ran up stairs and cried harder than I ever have knowing what she had done she cried next to me and admission explained to me what I feared at that point I hurt even worse . As weeks progressed I spiraled out of control and asked if she truly loved me two weeks went by and on October 31 she told me she thought she was fooling her self and did not I asked her if she had a boy friend she said does that matter I said yes  she told me she did at that point I drank rubbing  alcohol  and she refused to do anymore got up and left me to die there I fallowed her to the garage were I watched her drive away left me there to die . My friend Frank and William  came by and saved me they called a ambulance were I woke up week later, where I had marks on my body that I did not come in with hand prints on my back and shoulders ,cross engraved in my ribs. They hurt and stayed on me for months cross still there  I was served with a restraining order and because of me trying to kill myself ended up in court 13 times in 5 months and total of court was 27 times in  31 months by time I was done a ton of doctors and psychologist to. I tried to woo her and get her to talk to me and get my id's  back to but she had me arrested and incarcerated thanks to my great best  friend Mark bailed me out   She stripped me of everything even texted me through a third party to try and strip me of my patent half making me a offer and even every gift my family and friends gave me my family things my dad and mom gave me I mean everything. All I have is my cloths to my name and thanks to a few friends helped me one who took me in named Lisa  that hurt me endlessly a bi polar loon a tick woman who dinks heavy and takes a host of medication and takes  it with wine, beer, vodka, to make it worse a drama queen and could not keep anything to her self, hid from the law , can’t tell a story straight even if she had to read it she couldn’t, always got to know everyone’s business and the time I spent there she called me my friends and my family names and hurt me all the time even waking me in the middle of the night just to scream at me she would go through all my things and take what she wanted , like I was dumb and not noticed they were gone , my only source of refuge was a girl casey who filled me In on everything that was said and done we were each others informers  she had same problems to  like me , I discovered a pattern she did the same thing to everyone else who ever been there , even officers warned me not long ago about her . But out of this it hardened me and changed me my soft genital side into a cold callus fuck you man, she managed to strip my soft genital caring side away, but out of this I grew taught me a lesson I hope most never have to learn . It taught me how strong I am and lucky I am to still be alive but for how long I thrive on my mate now gone . I will never be the same again ever.

But .... Then there by fate or by God  there you came 

My life changed like God slapping me in face when you came into my life. Thank you for loving me unconditionally.