The Darkness

I give apart of myself away
Slipping into the darkness
Then im going off, astray
Not finding my way back is the hardest.
Losing a piece of my mind
Like it's candy or a game
Once im in the dark, ill be hard to find
Now what's scary, is im not feeling the pain.
Im feeling the downward pulling of this numbness
No please not again
But it pulled me all down, with all it's roughness
Until it gets me thinking "It's the end"
Then after that i pick myself up giving myself thanks
But harder and harder it gets
It pulled me down and took all my strength
So i stopped taking the occasional trips.
I don't know what to do anymore
Another night lying on the floor
If not that, its screaming in the shower
Till my ears blood is dripping no more.