Suicidal Ideation

Deliberation about courting death rooted

throughout mine psyche fueling sinister chortle

at least since bout with anorexia nervosa,

but... maybe ginned blood,

sans umbilical cord transfused in utero aortal,

though long since recovered, the intractable,

haunting specter, sans grim reaper

intertwining within every fiber of this mortal

rooted, grounded deep, and branched out

into each nook and cranny portal.

 

Said notion provoked,

when made painfully aware

youngest daughter (aged twenty)

plagued with similar thoughts,

damn genetics did maliciously engineer

clutching telephone while

seated at edge of chair

did apologetically, despairingly,

grievously... did air

pestilential, penitential, plenipotential... scare

 

re: distraction and understandable fear,

she might unwittingly plunge

into hopeless abysmal despair

falling prey into irrevocable

deathly hallows lair,

 

though kudos for her

from me, this sole Harris heir

to communicate, (albeit

hesitantly) into mine ear

suddenly wishing thy

Punim to be near,

but residing (about three hour drive

southeast of Portland, Oregon)

with my kid sister, attentive to welfare,

a sibling whose persona

doth show tender loving care

and concern, this papa

felt reassured there

would be every action taken

with sixth sense to beware

 

lest progeny exhibits

pointedly obvious lurching career

dramatic slide into behavioral sink

emergency measures sibling

immediately would commandeer,

hence somewhat relieved thee dear

beloved progeny receptive to hear,

this dada expressed his unconditional love,

and grateful psychological intervention offspring

boldly did declare

 

indicative professional help volunteer

really asserted necessary to stave off

how dice throw of fate unfair

to said lass, whose demise,

would abruptly kill this sonneteer!