Memories...

Dear diary.....
I remember it all
You had me by a four letter word
It was as if I was desperate to feel
And you took advantage of it.
There were no Warning Signs
It was as if you were perfection at its best
It was a defined feeling.
Yet reality can often be disappointing
As it came rushing down on me
You were only a figment of my imagination.
I just wish l had listened to the voices that whispered "girl get up and run"
I shouldn't have never even let you in
I felt so worthless as if I was one of your completed missions.
Yet to me you were my first and last love.
The scars l have are the only evidence
I was filled with rage
I swear l lost my sanity
I wasn't prepared for this
Couldn't understand as to why you did this to me.
You played me for a fool
Did l really mean nothing to you?
Why couldn't we control this storm?
I have so many unanswered questions