Soulless Maybe

caffeinated and depressed I drag myself along

at this point I’m a stranger in the body I once loved

constant internal battle

the reflection feels old

useless

so I cut it

My thoughts aren’t thoughts anymore

they shout at me

the sun rises

it sets

the moon reveals itself

now I'm awake

I want more but I’m trapped

lost in who I was

the box is small

scavenging for those last pieces of myself

but my eyes are shielded

permanently gazed over

blind to what's to come

coffee as dark as I feel

I don't need saved

mind racing but my fingers struggle to follow

routines are lame

now I'm floating down the river

but I don't want to

begging to sink

who's stopping me

a bargain with my soul

to save me from myself