Surrender Into Obliviousness

Gray matter subjected to accumulate

incessant overall slack heavily larded

earlier in marriage, viz Zison clan

evicted Harris family,

whose hardship unemployment did exacerbate,

neither me nor birth mother worked

both this sir, and mum mate

afflicted with psychological disability

where physiological torture did subjugate

our respective physical beings with inadequate

skills to cope with child rearing,

hence blissful dialect tickle

accent doth boldly punctuate

angst strum fretful das

chord dent mental state -

mein kampf pronouncedly scarred,

asper lifetime subjected to debilitate

ting panic attacks impossible to abdicate -

relentless whipsawing, hammering,

and fracking drilling would never abate,

ache ken to ten thousand maniacal banshees

nsync with mailer daemons create

ting bedlam courtesy (Olive)

garden variety silently kick starting freight

train recklessly coursing heedlessly

despite engineer hood handedly

madly, and ominously didst gesticulate

in vain, the loco motif

barreled thru one billeted gate

after another crashing, this soundless fate

driving me into marshy madness accelerate

ting an existence toward self destruction

in tandem with Sue S Side, I accentuate

time and again, yet self obliterate

ting this papa would eviscerate,

(albeit emotionally) lovely Punim

on path to autonomy, she matured of late,

exhibiting autism during childhood

compliments of intervention, mastered

vanquished every trace to acclimate

self reliance no matter said spate

of developmental delay,

cramped, crimped, and

crumpled cognitive literate

chores abilities, yet

supportive services did alleviate

ordinary setback, now indiscretions,

liaisons, and transgressions, I implicate,

some half dozen years

gone by, this husband

flaunted philandering, but woefully great

lee mistaken, yours truly did underestimate,

how sacrilegious cupidity, depravity, infidelity...

induced the missus never to exonerate

mine suddenly kismet forced belate

reflex, thus I futilely berate

then indecorous behavior

more so impacted eldest daughter,

first born offspring subsequently

angrily bore secret travails adulterate

ting spoiling her high school years,

viz compounded by egregious desire

for das dada to satiate

squelched sexual hunger

marriage without intercourse did frustrate

synonymous, when I hapt tubby celibate

bachelor, hence “FAKE”

Casanova did forever alienate

whose affect my

(hypothetical) untimely death

might be borne with

greater aplomb to accommodate

absence of this papa,

a generally conscientious fellow,

mental health askew since birth predicate

always hated grueling fiendish existence!