never in all my years have i thought that my womb would become a death bed. when my child died i think my spirit died along with it. how do i cope with the loss of someone i didn't even get to know? i've never felt so empty. i want to carry life again. i want to feel alive again.
i haven't slept much. when i'm finally able to i'm haunted by the same nightmare; a small, helpless, beautiful creature who never got a chance, resting peacefully in a sac of fluid. every unsuccessful attempt at a good night's sleep leads to tears becoming acquainted with my pillow. i try to sob silently so my lover doesn't hear. i know his heart aches just as bad as mine. we've lost a life that we both so lovingly created. a life that neither of us or anyone else can be a part of. i wonder if he dreams of what we had & what could've been while he sleeps.
i had to deliver the bad news to loved ones & it made my heart break all over again. i watched the excitement that used to be in their eyes turn into despair. i could hear the sadness in their voices when they told me "i'm sorry." but i feel sorry for them. not only do i feel like i let my baby down but i let everyone else down as well. the guilt sits in my stomach like a belly ache. i can't help but feel like i did something wrong. did i fail as a woman?
miscarriages are nature's cruelest act. i know i'll eventually find the strength to try again. but for now, there's only one heart beating inside of me.
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- Comment from author about the poem: i wrote this in the perspective of a woman that went through a miscarriage. (any constructive criticism is welcome)
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This was so pure and raw as no words can ever help this events, the only cure is time and a vent!
With tears from my own experience and friends, I thank you for this heart breaking read.
And I think I can say I'm glad it wasn't you? If it was that makes it even more powerful, for the strength needed is admirable!
Much peace and respect
i'm glad you like it. thanks for reading & commenting, i appreciate it.
This is so touchingly expressed creatively on behalf of the miscarrying woman.!! It is such an awesome poem , u deserve kudos.
Plz Pleez do comment on my newest poem too ok.
thank you for reading & commenting on my poem. i'll be sure to comment on yours too.
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