Damned

As close as we may stand, our Relationship, it’s been damned
The mother I want you to be, a mother I will never see
Emotionless and emptiness, is this what you wanted
All our memories, all our thoughts, our dreams have been haunted
Opinions and comments are more than just said, we get it breakfast, lunch, and dinner
Constantly fed
You tell us to be ourselves, speak up when things are not right
As long as it doesn’t upset you that is, or prepare for a fight
Unless you are happy no one else can ride high
Everyone in your path, ripped right from the sky
When I got older I thought it would be better, live my life my way
Right to the letter
As much as I hoped that’s not the case is it
My person, my being who I was, bitten
I hold back what I want so you will be pleased
Because everyone knows it’s all about what you need
Two children you birthed, you gave us life
Just to play our strings, and boy don’t you pull tight
You tell us you love us and that you truly care
But when things don’t go your way
To you we are just people, dog eat dog world
Seems only fair
You said you did all that you should, never you abused us
Never you would
But the memories they haunt us, they eat us up
But I think you know that, you’re just as messed up
From the moment you wake up you look for a fight
You’re more than just a bark, you have a mean bite 
You’re nasty, you’re cruel like a devil inside
Who is your victim, how do you decide?
Your children they hide, yes we avoid as we need
Because when we are around your anger it feeds
You are my demon my monster under the bed
As a child it wasn’t shadows that scared me
But rather you instead
As I get older I have emotions I cannot tame
You emotionless without reason
I feel it’s you to blame
I’m not the only one who feels this way
Sadly it’s true
Tonya ran away all because of you
As much as I love you and as much as I care
I have so much anger that around you I’m scared
I can snap at any moment you know that it’s true
I’m sorry to say my first victim would be you