On repeat

You wake up

Males putting on deodorant and clothes females beating their face with make up.

You begin your first day of your week, see that fine girl and you just want to get in them cheeks, but you don’t say shit because you just a goofy geek.

So it’s back to the grind to get bread.

same shit again things will get better ya that's what they said.

And I’m alone with my negative thoughts and they won’t leave my head.

So I took this bottle of henny ,Corona,  captin jack, and patron to head.

untill the room is spinning I’m breathing heavy and my eyes are red. 

My mind lost and my body in the bathroom with my puke in the toilet, tears on our faces and I wish I was dead. 

I remember I have a phone and I start to text

oh it’s her!!! Yo that’s my ex,

I miss her 

I should call I bet she misses the way I kissed her. 

Phone ringing until finally an answer 

but it’s not her voice 

and it brings out uncontrollable drunken tears.

when her new man answers and I get reminded of my old fears.

when I poison myself and get the bullshit on repeat. 

Would it have been the same if she didn’t cheat.

Wake up and look in the mirror you’re a loser 

you’re a loser.

Nothing but a depressed life sucking abuser.

And it’s back to the bullshit putting on deodorant and brushing my teeth.

same shit different day my life passes me by but my days are on repeat.