We've planned the days
we've planned a life.
my soul feels like its tied to you
and you claim the same
and god,
i know its true.
but everyday
gets stuck the same
of saying nothing
and playing no games.
there no fun in this friendship,
no memories in our love
things i've told to you before
not once, not twice
but four
you'll talk about family,
you want to build a life
but everyday i feel like i have to fight
to ask you for your time
to ask to see your face
to ask to be apart of the life you already had
i claim your my friend,
but in reality its not true
you claim im your love,
and i'll agree with you
you say you'll fix this
you've said it so
you said it would be easier when we get to wake up together
you claim it so
you said its the texting, its confusing the thoughts
muddling the emotions
you use this excuse as so
i tell you then come see me, we can talk about it
i'll look at your voice and see your face
nothing left to chance, with everything to read
but you said "i dont think that way"
your days are off and free
and you don't think to see me
you'll sit with friends
friends who ask who i am
friends who want to meet me
and yet you still can't click,
that thats where i'm ment to be
with you and your friends.
its been two years of this
this trying to make this work
its been six years,
since we met in school
and every single day i've loved you so
and you'd agree.
why am i fighting to be in your life?
why do you not think to have me there unless someone else tells you?
why do you say you listen to what i have to say, then do it again?
why do you never hear me?
why do you think for me?
why don't you just ask?
why don't you think of me?
why do we never do anything?
why would you want to call me your wife one day?
why are we talking about moving in together?
why are we talking about builing a life?
when i've known you for 6 years.
and you never made me your friend.
when we've been dating for 2 years
and you've never invited me to your life.
i've set the examples,
i've told you directly,
i asked you to think of me,
i told you i was upset,
i told you i wanted it to end.
you told me you heard me.
yet
nothings changed.
we're ment to be in every way
i love you with all of my soul
a love in my veins
shaking through every bone
and in every breath.
but we're not even friends,
the way we act.
we're not compatible.
i think i've learned that.
i can't feel this way again
i can't tell you my feelings
i can't have you tell me you hear me
i can't realise you didn't hear me in another month.
i can't do it again.
i tell you to fight for me.
i tell you even though we're secure,
you should still make me feel like i want to stay.
i'm telling you one last time.
that if im really your life.
your future
your soon to be bride
your wife
your future mother to your kids
then you have to show me.
because im not trusting your words anymore.
even when were meant to be, so.
- Author: Sugar Suicide (Pseudonym) ( Offline)
- Published: May 25th, 2019 16:59
- Comment from author about the poem: I'll be honest to the fact that this was more me processing why I'm feeling so unhappy. I've learned some things I'll tell you that. I don't expect this to get many reads, and thats okay. Maybe one of the few who sees this learns something too.
- Category: Unclassified
- Views: 22
Comments2
OK plain speaking. It reads like you are being taken for granted. If you want to continue that way just continue. If you dont then get out now. Don't try to change your partner, waste of time, they dont really want to listen do they. You're giving them something which they are using/abusing as a habit. Thats all u have become.
I'm being cruel to be kind.
Great feeling well expressed
Something change has to come form us
Be the change
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