The Final Recipe

I call this the final recipe…

I am a con artist

Different personalities to disguise my colors.

Never to be considered,

as someone who's just average.

Never thought I'll go back,

to being so kind hearted.

Late night and I am having these thoughts..

Wanting to go numb, to escape from them all.

I made a promise...

But I think I'll return to my old habits.

How can I explain?

How should I restrain?

The way I am feeling.. I might just go insane.

Should I let him know or should I keep it on the down low.

I don't know but I hope he understands though.

I just want to be alone just a little more…

I just want to feel numb in my own world.

Just know your love is irreplaceable..

Don't think you're the reason that I am feeling cold..

I just hope he understands where I am coming from...

That I need to ease my mind for the last time.

• Natalia GM