Ink Roached Infestation Didst Derive Within Mice Elf

(thus forever experiencing craving to eat cheese)

Nothing but gridlock traffic

(far as thee eye could see)

heading east on Schuylkill Expressway

(oxymoronic name for quickest route

into center city, albeit Philadelphia),

yet this papa promised eldest daughter

freshly minted University

of Pennsylvania graduate

hoping to make amends

prior to first born heading

of into blue, (...er rather green,

asper legal tender) beyond

(without doubt experiencing more

financial security than yours truly,

whose penurious crisis

tantamount to being self ostracized

within luxe MainLine,

where one percent flaunt their wealth

disparage dirt poor folks like this sir

meaning husband, his spouse

plus attendant two biological kin

reinforcing feeling inferior,

among those earning or

inheriting fistfulls of moolah,

said offspring also lodged opprobrium

citing slovenly housekeeping

amidst generations (Zison heirlooms)

yielding barely ample space

our family of four analogous

to sardines in a tin packed to the gills,

which pennilessness exacerbated

since neither mama nor papa (me) worked

reasons squarely linkedin to mental illness

asper myself - chronic anxiety, panic attacks

with concomitant courtesy benefits;

adrenaline maddeningly coursing thru veins

palms sweating profusely, racing heart

irritable bowels syndrome, nausea, vertigo...

physiological symptoms

played offal, nasty, malicious

cruel version of knick knack paddy whack...

with these lovely bones

severely disabled me to function

academia, employment, socialization...

imperiled satisfactory existence

learning, working, commingling

felt like butchered bovine

at slaughterhouse five.

 

bonhomie within beastie boy here

in short supply, an understatement,

now impossible mission to recoup

sabotaged, jackbooted, atrophied....

blissful happy go lucky little boy

blessedly energetic innately

nervous tensing up,

manifesting cringing pose

no matter parents lenient

though father bellowed stern rebukes

perhaps interpreting paternal rejection

sole son less gifted prowess with smarts

in short, no weigh,

shape, or form, a polymath

cultivated, habituated, ossified

once playful quirky little rascal

set tilled under veritable weathered

sedimentary stagnancy for peat sakes

psyche got bogged down

into impermeable metamorphic hardrock.