No Matter Papa Repents...

Every blasted acrimonious misdeed

aye indelibly perpetrated

affecting ye and the Punim for life

hounds me doggone soul night and day

venomous wrath torments, strangles, racks...

every bone in mine entire body

suicidal ideations haunt every

waking and sleeping hour,

perhaps previous attempts to communicate,

(albeit poetically - for no rhyme nor reason)

fell short, asper yours truly

to claim accountability, culpability, responsibility...

unwittingly subjecting thee, a prized progeny

with legacy, where

diabolical, emotional, psychological... trauma

compromised your care free growing up years

namely while residing at 1148 Greentree Lane

exacerbated by mine self absorption

countless hours misspent

whiling away precious time

mesmerized more so

with computer technology,

versus prioritizing fleeting moments

with "mother" and/or offspring

yes..he now pays heavy price

pursuing amorous liaisons

gallivanting, flirting, emailing...

impacting (obliviousness

pitifully lame retort unacceptable)

feigning much ado about nothing

snappishly barking anger

such vitriol (mine)

sabotaged once in

lifetime golden opportunity

to foster, kindle pinterest

with spouse and daughters

subsequently deepening rift

rivalling Mariana Trench

love's labour's lost forever

frittering away compounded

half heartedly seeking employment

even though - NO LIE

inexplicable debilitating anxiety

buzzfeeding panic attacks

plaguing my psyche

since...birth, incapacitating
maximizing potential abilities

playing havoc pledging troth

with counterpart exhibiting

mental health challenges

unfairly begetting deux darling lasses

thee bearing brunt of pennilessness,

at aforementioned residence

unlivable, horribly untidy,

toxic with mold, cluttered...

such offal sight, sounds of screaming,

(when Shana nonverbal), stench...

now suffer (PLEASE BELIEVE)

suicidal ideation plagues my conscience

pointed objects quite inviting

remembrance of things past,

a worse fate than death!




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