I'm not afraid

I'm not afraid to fall in love I'm just afraid of who will catch me. 

I'm not afraid to give out my love I'm just afraid of who will take it. 

I'm not afraid to tell you I love you I'm just afraid if you'll even say it back.

I've been afraid for way to long and it's about time I made things change but the only I can think of is the fear that you might hate me. I sit here and think to myself that I may mess up and will only make things worse but staying by your side. I wanna make a change so you and I can live happily together where we could smile and laugh but... 

 

I'm afraid... 

 

I'm not afraid to cut myself and watch the blood drip down. 

 

I'm not afraid to watch myself fall in my dreams. 

 

I'm not afraid to let others tear my heart apart. 

 

I'm just afraid of losing you... I'm afraid I won't make you happy or make you smile I'm afraid that your love for me will go away. I'm afraid that someday you'll say someone you regret meeting me. I'm just afraid of rejection and afraid to redeem myself when  I can't think of any words to turn your disappointed eyes brighter...

 

I'm not afraid to cry myself to sleep at night. 

 

I'm not afraid to lay awake and greet all my demons. 

 

I'm not afraid to smile even when I'm broken. 

 

I'm not afraid to die. 

 

I'm just afraid you won't be here by my side...