Inside Out

Let me be as raw and real with these words
of my thoughts becoming my personal conviction
I'm broken and longing for something that is missing
Did I dream it? Was it taken from me?

I remember a delicate surgery on my spine
I also remember a movie that premised the soul is found there
I suspiciously wonder if they took my soul
the longing is the remaining residue of empathy

I once had the most beautiful opportunity
I seized her in that moment and wanted it to never end
When I close my eyes I see her looking back at me
but she's gone, She's gone, she's gone away

Wow..
it has been so long
recalling eyes haunting my dreams
to evolve past where I've been
It was wrong

Before the hole in my heart could heal
another creature slid out from the shadows 
biting me hard and left a scar
I only removed the toxin long after it corrupted me
I wonder how the creature felt
it tasted me unlike any other

I imagined the purest embrace
and juxtaposed it with her face
it was all a charade
a deceitful game I played

I can't articulate
because I was lost
inside, within, behind
Wow..
it has been so long
recalling eyes haunting my dreams
to evolve past where I've been
It was wrong
longing in the dead of night
reaching for something out of sight
I can't explain why my heart suffocates
searching for love to emulate