Cosmic

Am I toxic ?

should I go and talk to her I ain’t shit I been hurt so I’m cautious. 

Life feels like a very intense heart surgery and I botched it.

Life is a leap of faith who the fuck do I think I am thinking I the ability and strength.

no matter how deep I drown however I find myself swimming back up no matter how far I sank.

So I reach for these stars because they’re out of this world. 

Like those before us however I wish before they left there left behind a “how to” in their seeds of knowledge planted in our earths soil.

Cause I’m alone with myself in the cosmos

every time I get close to winning it’s always almost.

and sometimes I can laugh beacuase it’s comic.

but most the time I feel like breaking apart lost and alone in is our little vacuum I feel I’m cosmic. 

I’m the clouds I’m the rain I feel your torture I swallow my pain .

im the road I’m the map and I can’t look in the mirror to see how far I came. 

Because a sudden flash of light everything I’ve ever done can be taken Away. 

We have our fun then it hits us we grow apart what can I say

i hate watching you leave but I won’t let you stay.

weather you are a lover friend or someone I was just interested In. 

I just want my life to mean something and I hope it’s something good and I hope even when I die my passion and love lives forever..

im the darkness I’m the hate I’m the scared I’m the nervous I’m the clever.

quick to give up on myself but on you?.. never 

if you know it or not when my clouds are dark you’re the sun poking it’s face out making my weather better. 

I want to give everything I do not want to take 

people like snow are cold and invidual however we’re all one of a kind and melt never to be seen again here’s to us the melted snow flakes. 

Gone and hopefully not forgotten at least not yet.

cosmic dealing with the cosmos the universe in coparrison to the earth alone