Black hole

A black hole  a region of space having a gravitational field so intense that no matter or radiation can escape. 

Im I toxic?  do I have free will? Who decides my fate?

is this it a life full of questions and no answers  or am I just scared to face the truth I am a natural disaster.

I am poison to my self witch is contagious.

  I entered a void that will not let me go. lossing my youth however feels as I do not grow. A leaf that fell from the tree and flew with the wind then the tree was stuck by lighting what a blow. a leaf left for dead with no home.  

I am sad I will not cry

I fail daily still I try 

my family forgets me I wonder why I have no love life I hate mental games I hate lies.

I am truly sad and will not show it my heart hurts hopefully killing me inside.  

Killing the me that is sad  I’m tired of sad and happy what’s the difference you’re one or the other either up or down like an emotional latter.

and it doesn’t matter  because we live here and we grow and dream just to have them all shattered. so leave me bruised and battered.

cause when I leave at least I went out trying. I try and try and try again. I fail it hurts I’m let down my biggest enemy is me when will this fued end.  

Im in my life and it turn to a black hole.

when I die who will take my soul.

Hopefully I leave behind something worth some ones time. I look forward it’s dark and I look behind and it tears my apart; I’m stuck in my dark hole saying I will be fine.  

Drinking gets boring drugs couldnt be better my heart hurts my heart hurts may we be alone forever.

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