Acceptance

I write a lot of poems about a lot of different things,

Love, Hate, Desires, Anger, Sadness,

But one thing is for sure I'm not perfect and I have accepted this,

I'm a beautiful wrecked mess,

I have all theses suppressed feelings that I try not to think about,

I've cried and cried so much my eyes were a drought,

And I've fought so much for my place in the world and lost, fought and lost again leaving me broken and bruised,

Crawling back to who I used to be was pointless,

But I learned inexperienced knowledge,

But I have accepted that this is my life now,

Falling for people who don't return feelings I share and/or don't know-how,

I'm a beautiful powerful void that everyone throws their feelings into and stories of their wicked past,

I take everyone's pain in exchange for their happiness,

I was told that I'm a great listener...yay,

but who listens to me?

Oh that's right no one, I am to deal with my problems alone,

Oh but don't feel bad for me, I've evolved past my years with meditation and prayer....man was that hard,

There's a large vast of energy that comes from me and can make you feel at peace when I speak,

Do me wrong and I'll turn a blind eye but know that, this eye can see figures,

Figures of your lies, and deceit, and how incredibly unholy you truly act when no one is watching you,

Hurt someone I love......well,

I may look like a beautiful dream but trust me when I say that I will become your nightmare,

I will wreak unspeakable havoc,

Like I said....unspeakable, so I can't go into detail but it will make hell look like a vacation,

I am not a violent person but when I love, I love hard...tbh harder than most so for you to come and hurt who I love,

That's just as bad as murder in my eyes,

I've accepted that this is my life,

And that I may never truly receive the full amount of love I deserve,

And that's okay bc I've accepted this,

So when I say I'm a QUEEN just know I've been through everything to back it up,

I have acceptance in that all I am,

Do you?